This word has kinda been weighing on me all morning. How it's definition doesn't really doesn't describe me exactly the way I want. But the name 'makes-people-feel-safe-when-I'm-with-them' house doesn't roll off the tongue as much. The problem with being a safe house is that you're making a sort of promise to people. To be there always, to listen to whatever they have to say with no judgement and complete understanding. And the thing is, I love being that for people. I love that I can befriend anyone from just about anywhere and understand where they come from. That even if I've never been through their exact situation I can empathize with them. Everyone deserves that I think. Someone that's never going to leave them, that really good friend. I don't know. Maybe I'm just selfish that way.
Doesn't sound like much of a problem until you have to break the promise, or hold off on that promise for a little while. Trust can't be stretched or bent. It can only be broken. And you can only do so much to assure the person that you won't break it. I don't want to be a crutch for anyone, but I do like making people feel better. That's just me. And I'd hate for my absence to detrimentally affect someone (or affect someone at all for that matter) thought that is extremely pretentious of me to think. My hope is that my soul stays intact and that I can keep as many people in my safe house as possible.
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